stop lying to yourself

So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth

Revelation 3:16

Do you usually get what you want from life?
The reason why most people (and more specifically why I) answer that question with a resounding “NO!” is because they aren’t honest with themselves about what they really want. Even if you don’t know what you want that’s probably a good indicator that you haven’t done a “fearless moral inventory” of yourself. You’re (i.e. I am) living a lie.

Someone asked me recently “What are you passionate about?” I didn’t have a good answer. I can see god right now projectile vomiting me across the room. And let’s not forget that according to many esoteric teachings I am him,her or it to a degree. So in some sense, going by the aforementioned bible verse, I make myself sick. And that’s the most likely outcome for anyone who drags themselves miserably through life without any real purpose, passion, fun or fulfillment. Stress kills and I’d say quite confidently that apathy does too.

In Figure Drawing For All It’s Worth, Andrew Loomis in his introduction talks about the kind of passion that’s needed to accomplish any artistic pursuit: “I feel that talent means little unless coupled with an insatiable desire to give an excellent personal demonstration of ability. I feel also that talent must be in company with a capacity for unlimited effort, which provides the power that eventually hurdles the difficulties that would frustrate lukewarm enthusiasm.”

Well, emerging from my old story of apathy and ennui is a man of new found passion. What do I really like to do? What is fun and fulfilling for me? Sometimes with these kinds of things the answer is hiding in plane sight, as they say. The answer is This. I love to write (about myself 😜). Thanks for reading.

The Magician Noblet Tarot